Where I Was And Where I Am...

When i think about how far I have come in the last 2 years I am proud,

However I still have bad days, and I do wonder if this is going to be for the rest of my days? When I sit and think on this i cry and wonder why I dont just give up and end it all, when i was at my worst these thoughts were all day every day - now its once/twice a week IF that, and it still scares me today as much as it did then. What if i give in to those thoughts? 

One amazing piece of advice I got from a psychiatrist 'suicide is a short term solution to a long term problem' this piece of advice does keep me going. 

I am lucky I have amazing parents who support and listen to me, even if they don't always understand the ins and outs of my brain.

I want this blog to show people it DOES get better, but I also need to learn how to deal with this hideous illness for the rest of my life.

Lots of Love

CW2 x